Soz!

SOZ! Sounds weird. But it's shorter than sorry, so im usin it man!

I haven't been writing much cos whenever I want to, people loom over my shoulder. Which is annoying.
I am depressed. ==>

Uh, so i'm err, going ro see a psychiatrist on Tuesday. Mum arranged it after i asked her too. Well, she offered, i said i'd think about it, and then agreed. I never smile. I know I don't. I fake smiling, but i don't truly smile. We had the parnt/teache meeting on Thursday. Eek. The teachers says I'm "a pleasure to teach" but "i just appear to be really, really sad". What, really? Did you notice? My sistrs get on really well, and call each other "Don Miguel" all the time. I can hear Christie singing "Don Mguel Don Miguel.. PooPoo Heaad! Hahaha Looove Don Miguel I love Don Miguel ah-ahaha Don Mguel!" And Joan says "I Follow you". They are looking for chocolate. And have asked me if i've eaten all the Mars Bars. Which I haven't. They act like the'r two when they're together.
But to them, I'm othing, i'm not their sister. I don't mean anything to them. Ailsa the othr day said "I don't LIKE you."


*I didn't get to publish this postthe day i wrote it , so the above was written on Sunday*


Tuesday

I went to the psychologist this morning. He asked what had been going on so I told him. ell, I didn't tell him I'd smoked twice and that Tony* broke my heart in October, but I told him about my bitchy ex-"friends". Anyway, i missed my train, so i'm geting one in 2 hours time. I got my issue of Sugar:

Anyway, have PE and RE this aftrnoon. Whoopee, we're gonna learn about Easter. Like we have every other f*cking year since we were like, born. Oh great!

Well, I'm signing off now. Oh, one last thing, I'm gonna give you first a sort of description as to what i look like: I have long dark brown hai, a little wavy, and very very voluminous, i have green/brown eyes, pale skin, a round stomach (im gonna have to have a tummy-tuck!). I have one hell of a hairy back. NOT nice. Ugh!

Oh, and i'm enterin The BEAUTY EDITOR comp for the TEEN POWER issue of SUGAR. :D

Byyye

Excuses Excuses!

:S

Sorry for not posting in ages! I just havn't been online in forever (since thursday).
Uh... Things got sorted out with Nancy, she apologizd. And the others do want me around. For now.
My trip to the cinema sunday is going to be GO (girls only. d'oh!) cuz Tony is going to Lewis's birthday that day. Disappointed at not being invited :(
Yet again, Elle is maybe pregnant. The test was negative, but her period is now 3 weeks late.

BTW, as i right this, i'm watching this vid:



I love JB, he's so cute, i esecially love the acoustic versions of his songs.

I've had a pretty boring time. Pfiou! I'm so bored. Ugh! Sorry if this post is boring. OO! OOooo!!!! Heyyy! I might be getting my New Moon DVD tonight!! :DD love the twilight saga. And you know, the EXTREMELY fit boys have nothing to do with my lov for twilight. Not at all. Lol.

My views on Robert Pattinson:

Yes, i fancy him. What can i say? He's only, y'know, ten years older;.. And really fit. :P
But he's a really good actor. And I thought he might just be really good at playing Edward Cullen (more on that laters) but from what i've seen of Remember Me, he's just a reall good actor!
So, edward wise... I think he just plays Edward so well. The way he switches from being really serious to having that edward-esque half-smile playing around his (gorgeous) lips, and back to angrily serious. And you know, Edward can be really lighthearted one second, an incredibly deprressed the next. Rob can play that role. He inhabits that role. And he's totally different in Remember Me.



The Remember Me trailer:



The Eclipse trailer:



And I just ffound this! Behind the scenes!



Byyye

Oh bitch

So, yesterday, i was mant to be going out with mates... Cos of my train, i got at the place three linutes late. I texted Nancy* to ask em to wait up a couple of minutes. She told the others i'd canceled so they lef without me. I called her. As soon as she realised it was me, she hung up. I had to wait for hours and hours till i could come home.

Today she told a git in my class, who made fun of me. I told my two BFFs.
And just now on MSN she's said: I hate you, leave us alone. We all want you to f**k off. We all hate you. DOnt ever want to se you again. Nice eh?
Ok, for those who don't know: I changed group of friends about a month ago. The old ones were really really bitcjy about me and my family. About the fact my mum's bi and my dad used to be an alcoholic. They said i drink and smoke constantly. All untrue. I've never touched drop of alcohol and smoked ONCE. A couple of months back/ Haven't since.
Anyway, I headed towards the group my BFF Lindsay* is in? The REALLY popular girls in school.
So I've been with them for about a month. It sounds really cliché i know, but i swear it's true! So, Elle* is really brutally honest. If someone's not wanted, she'll say it. Harsh. She ditched a girl who tried to tag along a week ago, and another today, and they hadn't been around long. i've been around longer, and today she left a post on my wall on facebook: "I'm so glad we're friends i love you so much. Every day i gt to know you a little better and that makes me happy. I love you <3"
So, as she's kind of the leader of the group, i take that to mean the other girls like me.
But Nancy*, the ebitch, wants me to go and leave them alone. I reckon she's just jealous. And a user. She claims she bi, but it's just to get attention. She just turned twelve, but for over a year, she's been stuffing her bra to give herself massvie boobs. She has a new girlfriend/byfriend every week, and claims she in love with all of them. She dresses really cheap looking and inexêrtly applies makeup. She's a mess. An attention seeking mess. Her current girlfriend, Alyson*, is maybe gonna dump her. She met her on facebook... And has never met her in real life. She just is so.. Huh, i have no words for this girl. She's not even that pretty.
Anyway, I have no idea what I'm going to do.
But heyy, that's life. Out of the six girls i now hang with, i'm sure 3 like me, one hates me and i dunno about the other two. JUst argued with mum. Yippee. I told her that i did meet up with my friends yesterday. Which isn't true. But she'd have killed me otherwise.

Look, I have nothing more to say. I just sent a message to the two girls i'm not sure want me around. I'll soon find out i guess. *Sigh*

over and out

Six pack phwoar

I'm listening to Today Was A Fairytale by Taylor Swift. I bought it as soon as I saw the film Valentine's Day. I loved it (the film and the song). It's like Love Actually only based around Valentine's Day instead of christmas.

So, yestrday, we had PE. Basketball. Ugh. And I went back to Gouren, which was good. Poor JJ*. He's such an awkward, well meaning, nearly 16-year-old boy. Aww. And he still has a massive crush on Christie*!
Anyway. Basketball: So, our PE teacher joined the opposite team, and he got too hot so he pulled off his (red) sweater. His t-shirt came off slightly too... And he has one hell of a torso!! Quite pale, alittle hairy. But you know, well muscly..!
Anyway, both teams were girls... There was just silence. We were all, quite literally gawping. So to ease the awkward silence, he said: "Oh, sorry girls, I forgot to take my bra off, did you see it?" LOL!
Still, weird!

I've gotta go. I have lots more to say but I really have to go, soz!

Here's a treat:

Eh-oh

Say hello! Eh'oh! Telletubbies, teletubbies...

Right, soz bout that. I managed to cry a bit and got out of detention. =D
Uh, went to see a mate of mine in hospial (really horrible epileptic fit). He'd just gone home. Uhuh. Crappios.
Lewis* and I sorted everything out. We're good. It's his birthday in four days.

file:///C:/DOCUME~1/Meeee/LOCALS~1/Temp/Fight%20For%20This%20Love.mp3

Will that link thing work? 8I
I really need to get a air of heels. I'm gonna give you some background news at the BOttom... of my blog. Go check it out. It's pretty cliché movie type thing. But true i swear.
I'm reading Queen Bees and Wanabes by Rosalind Wiseman. Meangirls was based on it. It's my mum's feminist book, she is indeedy a feminist.

Could put that on a tee shirt for her birthday... Hmm, i'll think about that...

It's quite interesting. And i can now tell when mum's using the book's techniques. I won't deny I bitch? I bitch about the girls and guys who piss me off. Like that female prick who kicked me in the leg for ages. I slapped her later. Ha. In her (ugly) face. And Celia*... That skirt with those boots... Plus those 10 denier black tights (!!!!) ripped.. Looked so like a prostitute. As in this skirt. Nearly, knee high black boots. Ugh.

Ok, btching over. I have to go eat. Byyeeee!!

Ballet, Weekend... Cinema blah de blah..

So, yesterday, I had ballet from half past ten 'til quarter to three. am to pm obvs.
I was exausted and my feet hurt so bad. Usually i only have ballet until 12! So an extra 2hrs!!! :/
I got home at four. My alarm didn't go off that morning, no idea why... Woke up at 8:25 am. Bearing in mind I have to go to my friend's house (her gran takes us there, my mum brings us home. This friend is my nieghbour) at 8:30 am. So rush-a-doodle-doo. Left the house eight minutes later, no makeup. Record time.

That night, we all went to the cinema "as a family" to watch a world war II film La Raffle. It was a great film, but really, really sad. We were all crying. You know at the end of a film, everyone starts to leave, well everyone just stayed sat down, crying.

Here's the trailer in french:



Byye, school tomoz. Ugh!

xoxox

Oh My God! Lying Traitor Alert!

So, yesterday, we had to go swimming with school. Which totally exausted me BTW. I was yawning all day. Last lesson maths: not paying attention, just wanted to get HOME! Anyhoos, the guy I've "renamed" Lewis* for this blog. He sent me a little message on a piece of paper. He was asking when we were going out to the cinema for my birthday. My math teacher, that horrible, elvin bitch (she really is. And she thinks she's really impressive. She's really not. She just makes herself look like and idiot.), well, she spotted it. She was like "Oh! FRANKIE! I've been watching you, acting up all lesson! Hand me that paper now!" so i did. She read it. And she was like "Writing to your classmates during my lesson! Who we you writing to?!" So i said i hadn't written it. I'd received it. I had to stop myself from asking her if she understood what i was saying. So she asked who sent it to me then. I eventually told her Lewis* had written it. *Lewis* tries to mkae himself invisible* "Well, this will be a detention for both of you!" Well fanks ma'am!

Anyway, as usual i left ten minutes before anyone else to catch my train. So, after I'd gone, Lewis* went to try and talk her out of giving him a detention. Later, on MSN, he says to me: "Look, i'm really sorry but I lied. I told the old bitch you'd written me anot first and i was just ansrin.... and stuff. sorry (he said that like a trillion times)." and signd off
said he hoped i dont mind taking the blame.


I'm goona go now.

:D Arvie wih Mates!

Heyy, sorry I didn't post anything yesterday, just didn't have time... As I was watching What Katie Did Next. Jordan's growing on me. IS it Adam or Joe of Adam and Joe that likes her? I can't rememeber. Ah well...

Anyways, we're gonig swimming with my school tomorrow as part of PE. Which I hate. I hate my stomach and my hairy back. Hehe. And mum won't let me wear a bikini for the school thing. Anyways, I went out in today with my friends. :)))
We had a good time. Alyssa* and Sarah* smoked. I didn't. I have, but I'm not like a regular smoker. I tried a fag. Once. Twice. END OF! And it's been a couple of months. At one point all (one, two, three, four..) FIVE of us were walking right behind my Dad. And he didn't notice! Anyway, Alyssa looked amazing as ususal, well,t hey all did. Lindsay* is so gorgeous! I've gotta go soon. :(
I kinda enjoy blogging. Ayy well. We got me this gorgeous swimming cossie from C&A. It's blue and white. And hides my 'orrible stomach.

Well, i gotta go. Byyye. Wish me luck for tomorrow!

What a pain in the neck!

Hey! Hola! Aloha! Blah blah blah!
Ok, so "exciting" (by my mum's standards) morning so far! Woke up to Jusin Bieber singing One Less Lonely Girl turned my head and OWW BLOODY OWWWW!! Crick in my neck! Yippee! If you don't know the Biebster here's the song i have wake me up in the morning:



He sang Baby for Let's Dance For Sport Relief :))

Anyway, I can't move my neck. Thought I'd be ok to go to school. Was wrong, so, i got on the train, bag really hurting my shoulder because of my neck, train was a total NIGHTMARE! Just, ugh! I texted my mum just before. Just as the train began to lave, she replied

Coming Back, don't get on the train

The train left. I got off at the next stop and got the next train back. *****'s station makes the local look like luxury. It doesn't have an underground passageway, so i had to cross the track. And then had to get over a fence to get to the bus stop that was the 'train-station'. Fortunately, there was a really fit lad of about 15 at the bus stop. :D

And now I'm home, my neck raeally hurts, and I've just eaten a cookie i wasn't meant to eat. I feel like listening to Cookie Monster now!

Here's the video: LOL!!



And let's throw this in too!



So, yesterday, Joan was a bitch, she said: "Well, Frankie won't do anything with her life, she's the stupidest on the family... What?! It's true!" Nice huh? Well, to cheer me up, Dad took me out to the beach with the dog, wihtout telling anyone. We got back three hours later. And Mum had just realised we were missing. Thanks!

I feel sick now. At the moment, I'm feeling sick like all the time, and I'm never, ever hungry, and i don't eat all the time either, i just... The idea of eating makes me feel sick. Unless it's a chocolate-chip-cookie that is!

That's it for now!

Oh, I found this blog that pretty funny, click here to see it!

Heyy, i'm back!

Grrr! Ok, so why was i gone for about like a week? Well, i had a massive argument with my mum and my sister, and then i got banned from this crappy little laptop. So yay for that! Okay, so just to be clear, i'll give you an idea of my family:

-Mum and Dad (Dads just turned 51, Mum about to turn 49)
-Sisters Joan*, 18 in april, and Christine*, 16 in May.
-Cousin Anna*, 13 in a few days, her parents Lilith* and Dougie*.
- Grandad (one in england, one in portugal, no more grannies)
-All my pets: Ok, i'll give their real names: Goats Sundance and Poppy (Poppy pregnant), Dog Lagadu, Cats Tabby and Lily, Guinea-Pigs Coco and Georgia, Bunny Phillipe Phellop (JOKE: What do you call a frenh man in sandals? Phillipe Phellope! You know, rabbit ears..? Oh never mind!), also call him Houdini for his regular disappearing acts, and Christine* calls him Princess Consuelo Banana Hammock, and i have two goldfish, Dori and NotSo T-Lo.

I have other relatives but i probs will never mention them! Oh wait! I have two little cousin's, le's say Hayden* who's gonna be five and KiKi who'll be three, both in may. Sooo cute!

So, my birthday's been, not the best birthday ever i'll admit. I got the leather jacket AND the shirt though, so thanks M and D! itunes voucher from Joan* and Christine's taking me to get my ears pierced for the third time. I got a see-through mascara too. My big present is a hutch/run for my pets. 130€, that's why i didnt get much else. :(

I know i sound really shallow there, but this is the only place i've admitted not enjoying my birthday. I keep on aruing with Joan, as usual. 've said it before and i'll say it again: Joan only ever talks about her (pretty ugly, gluey) boyfriend and Christine only ever talks to her boyfriend (who's quite good looking, although Joan complains about his nose for some reasn? What does she care? She has her slug-boyfriend, who happens to want to marry her.). I'm single, whoopee. Guess what Joan said last night? "Frankie will be the least successful, as she's the stupidest of us three [sisters]." Well, thanks Joan.

So yeah, life still shit. Wanna see my friends again!! :( miss 'em/

Also, JOan claims to be in love with her slug, excusez-moi, she sooo is not. She also claims she was in love with the last. I don't think she is or was. Christine's in love with hers though.

Well, bye i guess.

xx